a week later

and I haven't been checking in here!!!! 192 on the scale this morning. I have done some good meals - the Balsamic Beef sandwiches in the crock pot were awesome. YUM.

I got cans of soda like I said I would, but I think I'd had 2 or 3 12 packs. I need to pay attention to how many I have a day! I need to get back on track - on a track I wasn't even on in the first place, LOL.

I have to try to incorporate some exercise and work on the soda thing - those are my 2 short-term goals. I also want to take BEFORE pics!!! I think that will be some good motivation, but mostly, I want to be able to see how far I've come! I want to take measurements but never know how to do them.

a few meals

I haven't been perfect today, but I've been a little better, and I am going to start planning meals as a way to be more healthy.

Tonight I'm making an easy chicken pot pie. Tomorrow I'm trying Slow Cooker Balsamic Beef Sandwiches. Thanks to Jill for suggesting the slow cooker recipe!

I didn't get too much at the store today, but I'll do some more planning, including healthy snacks this weekend. I bought some 12 packs of cans of soda - I am going to try that as a way to limit and portion myself without going cold turkey and freaking out! I am drinking lots of water!!

here we go again

Spring and summer are coming SOON, and here I am again dreading what I'll wear and how I'll feel in my skin. I am tired of seeing myself write about not making any progress, so I'm sure nobody else wants to hear it! I just need to do this.

I have been seeing 194 on the scale in the past few weeks - my highest non-pregnancy weight - and I'm so mad at myself!! This morning I saw 190.5. Yesterday or the day before 192. I know it fluctuates.

I haven't solved my soda problem, and I still haven't been exercising. I have started the sit-up and push-up challenges 5 or 6 times now I think. I almost typed LOL but maybe it should be COL (cry out loud) or SOL (scream out loud). At least it is something I guess.

I need to work on baby steps to get into some good and healthy routines. NEED. TO.

I am going to set a goal based on Kate's birthday - it's a date coming up, and it's significant since it will be 2 years since I had my last baby. I still think about being 171 soon after I had her. Ugh!!!!! Ok, so 1lb. a week until her birthday is 12lb. Wow, 12 lb. sounds like a lot and could really make a difference, right???? I'd be thrilled with 10 by then. Then I think that I'd be 180 or so, and that isn't even that good. LOL, yeah, well it's in the right direction and I have not gone anywhere lately. I have to get to 180 before I get to 160! Or 140!!!!!!

I don't even know what to say I'm going to do. I could say I'll be OP on WW, but I don't even know. I have to think about it more!

sit-ups

Wow, I can't believe I haven't posted anything here since AUGUST!

I haven't made much progress with losing weight or exercising since then either :-(

I started the sit-up (crunch) challenge again. I took the initial test on 12/8, and I just got around to doing my first day of crunches today. I did 55 for the initial test, so according to their instructions, I started with Week 3, the 3rd column.

I did 21, 27, 21, 21, 35 (max set of at least 30). So, my total is up to 180.

I'm not really OP or watching what I eat, though I need to be. I'm just not sure I can add anything else to focus on before the holidays. I want to at least do these crunches and maybe some other exercise.

16 points

Today I drank a 2 liter bottle of Caffeine Free Pepsi. That is 16 points. 16. Brilliant, huh? I guess that makes it clear why I was never losing weight before, LOL. I just figured out that a 12 pack of cans is 36 points, and I'm pretty sure that I could drink that in a day too. Nice.

Anyway, I have been SOSOSOSOSO much better about drinking soda and non-water lately. So, I will keep in mind that a 2 liter bottle is **16** points and move on. I also had 2 full fat hot dogs with rolls for dinner, and somehow I'm still hungry. Not sure how that is possible. I just checked and it's 4pts per hot dog and 2 pts per roll, so 12 pts for 2 hot dogs if I don't count the ketchup, which I usually don't.

I still LOVE soda, but I love drinking water too.

a few more things

I am still doing my push-up challenge, though I have been repeating weeks and missing workouts here and there. I am going to do it though! Hey, maybe I should do my push-ups at 3:43 am??

I took the kids to our neighborhood park yesterday (both of them in the wagon) and walked for 20 minutes on the way there to get some extra exercise. Every little bit counts, right?

I look at my weight spreadsheet a lot, and it really helps motivate me. I don't freak out over it - I just focus on where I could be and not "wasting" time not losing. This takes time, and I don't need it taking longer than it already will!! I am a little ahead, and it says 172 on 12/28 - that would be amazing for Christmas!! Maybe I can make 170 by then!!!

insomnia

Kate woke up around 2am (actually her Angelcare monitor kept going off because she likes to sleep on her side pressed up against the end of the crib) and I am still up. Right now I'm in the office trying to decide which one of a million things I want to do, when I should be figuring out how to get back to sleep. I am eating a 5pt Lean Cuisine (meatloaf and mashed potatoes, LOL) and drinking water. I have been loving eating the LCs lately - I love warm meals like that, even for breakfast. Yesterday I tried a new one that I love - Five Cheese Rigatoni (7 pts, but SO good) and had it for lunch and dinner. Can you see a theme here? I need to be COOKING and eating better! I am giving myself a break though because I've been stressed and busy with helping my mom a lot after her surgery, and I'm semi-OP and doing well. I've been seeing 187 and 188 on the scale at times - not bad since I've been at 192 so recently.

Ok, now to decide between paying bills, working on the office mess, playing on Facebook, looking at spreadsheets I've made for various things, reading the latest Sookie book, or trying to SLEEP (and probably 20 other options). Even the bills would be fun for me - I just love getting things done.